Things I must get out, but can't say out loud

My head is messing with me. I know I caught my friend's sickness, whatever it was, but I also know I'm not fully sick. I might be a carrier, yet I show signs of symptoms. Not very severe at all. I can still work. Random.

Well, my dad sure doesn't want me to do nothing during the summer. Work, school, stuff. I already have a job! and I get paid for it! My dad doesn't want me to be there. He wants me to do math, and school stuff, and stuff i basically hate doing. i hate them sometimes.

I'm in too bad of a mood right now to finish this entry.

well, my first post on LiveJournal. Here goes.


I feel lonely. Most of my friends are leaving for the summer vacations right about now, and the others I can't see often, or at all, for that matter. I miss them. One of them is my best male friend. He can always bring a smile to my face and make me laugh. Every night, or almost every night, he and I would email back and forth. Random messages about nothing and telling each other or dreams/nightmares and stories of the day. We send each other songs we liked and tried to hook the other person onto the song as well. In karate, as well, he is one of the best partners I've had. He's a higher rank than me and I look up to him, a lot of us do. The only fault I can find is that he's too nice when he's my partner. He doesn't challenge me.

He's gone for a week and a half to Florida, where he will be visiting Disney World most of the time. Judging by the time he comes back, until he gets over his jet lag and  stuff, it will be two weeks before I get to see him or talk to him again. He can't email me due to the fact that there are no computers in his hotel. And besides, I'd have to be on the computer two hours ahead of normal.

I never thought I'd miss someone's emails so much! Since I had nothing to do, I came to write my first journal entry. Laugh at me, if you will, but I don't care. I feel... sad. I feel alone. I'm also worried about all my friends leaving for vacation: I won't hear from them until they get back, how can I know how they are doing? I'm worried, and I'm alone. No wonder I'm on here.

Current Mood: sad, depressed